02-20-2015

Last Tuesday, I passed by Sonny's BBQ and got a sniff of that yummy-smelling-freshly-cooked ribs.

I smiled because I remember how my late husband Chuck loved them.

Today I was remembering how Chuck likes to surprise me with little things when I get home from work.

A card.

Flowers he picked up from the neighbors garden.

A piece of chocolate with my name on it.

I smiled.

A week ago I was organizing my stuff and found Chuck's favorite shirt.

It still smells like him.

I tried to smile but I couldn't.

Because he is not here today, on what would have been his birthday.

Happy birthday up in heaven my Mister Fun Guy!

Thank you for your true love...

"It's not about money money money "

* S.P.O.I.L.E.D*

It feels so good to come home to a nice dinner ready for me with beautiful pink flower from the backyard too! ... I'm lucky to have a new "Chuck" in my life who makes me feel so special every second of the day.... 

* A Visit...

After a little over 2 years, it feels so good to be back to my late husband's (Chuck) and my favorite place we called "our paradise" that we used to visit every other weekend... and to have TIM who patiently accompany me here and loves spending time with me 24/7 , I AM VERY HAPPY. I found another CHUCK in him... Life is never a dull moment with my new fun guy.

*I WASTED MY LIFE BEING WITH THIS GUY

Some people are just born to be douche bags, fake, jerk and CHEATERS

*Mr. Right VS Mr.Wrong

T.R.U.E

 ( I found my Mr. Right the second time around :D )

Yes it will....

CHEATERS GO TO HELL!

*THE WORLD LOST SOME COLOR

( written on Oct.26,2011 ---missing my Husband )






......October 24, 2011, My husband Chuck passed away due to Heart attack.

I typed those words and I re-read them and I cannot believe it’s true.

I wish I was lying to you.

But I’m not.

The world lost some color that day... As soon as the doctors told me to be ready because there's no hope that they can save him, everything seemed to turn black and white.

I imagine it will take time to turn back to color again but the world will never, ever be the same.

My heart feels missing.

Lost.

Broken.

This is so completely unfair.... It’s unfair....

I just can’t comprehend it..

I wonder if  I can get an explanation from God why this happened,  would it make me feel better?

I am so grateful to have him for 9 years...great fun loving memories. To have wrapped my arms around him, kissed him , laughed with him.... to have shared our dreams together, to have been able to look into his eyes and tell him how much I loved him and how lucky I was to have him in my life...

I will never, ever forget the gift of just knowing him...my fun fun funny guy!

BUT FOR RIGHT NOW, MY HEART JUST WANTS HIM BACK.

Please pray for his soul....

*A SPECIAL DAY

"IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW OLD YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE , YOU NEVER STOP NEEDING YOUR MOM" - Kate Winslet. ....And I will never stop needing mine...Happy Mother's Day to the best mom in the whole world.Daddy,Honey, Jon-Jon, Precious and I wants to thank you for the never ending love and care.We love you with all our heart.

It's a great feeling celebrating it with you this time...