*THE WORLD LOST SOME COLOR

( written on Oct.26,2011 ---missing my Husband )






......October 24, 2011, My husband Chuck passed away due to Heart attack.

I typed those words and I re-read them and I cannot believe it’s true.

I wish I was lying to you.

But I’m not.

The world lost some color that day... As soon as the doctors told me to be ready because there's no hope that they can save him, everything seemed to turn black and white.

I imagine it will take time to turn back to color again but the world will never, ever be the same.

My heart feels missing.

Lost.

Broken.

This is so completely unfair.... It’s unfair....

I just can’t comprehend it..

I wonder if  I can get an explanation from God why this happened,  would it make me feel better?

I am so grateful to have him for 9 years...great fun loving memories. To have wrapped my arms around him, kissed him , laughed with him.... to have shared our dreams together, to have been able to look into his eyes and tell him how much I loved him and how lucky I was to have him in my life...

I will never, ever forget the gift of just knowing him...my fun fun funny guy!

BUT FOR RIGHT NOW, MY HEART JUST WANTS HIM BACK.

Please pray for his soul....

*A SPECIAL DAY

"IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW OLD YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE , YOU NEVER STOP NEEDING YOUR MOM" - Kate Winslet. ....And I will never stop needing mine...Happy Mother's Day to the best mom in the whole world.Daddy,Honey, Jon-Jon, Precious and I wants to thank you for the never ending love and care.We love you with all our heart.

It's a great feeling celebrating it with you this time...

* Happy "V" Day Everyone!!!

Sometimes you can tell how much people love each other without even seeing their faces...

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The smiles. The laughters. The love. The time together.....Those are what matters.

*EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT....

....IN TIME

*random thoughts # 31

I wish I had three hands. Then I could eat cupcakes, ride my bike and fly a kite at the same time.

*A WALK IN THE PARK

It’s been unseasonably cool here this early 4th of July morning, must be brought by the rain these past few days... The hubby is in his deep sleep and when the sun came out I decided to sneak out of the house and do my walking at a Park close by and take some pictures.

I didn’t walk fast enough to get a cardio workout kinda' thing, but it was so nice to just enjoy the flowers,the plants and the trees...to listen to the sound of the water flowing from one pond to another and to feel the damp, refreshing air on my face.



I saw a group of white birds and ducks and a squirrel lookin' back at me and some other creatures minding their own business.




It was nice...

Sometimes, I have to remind myself to live life even in small ways.

*TEMPORARY BINGE EATING (again)

Monday, I'll go back to healthy eating, but today I enjoy the hell outta my huge fried tilapia with lots of rice…and strawberry margarita...and chocolate cake topped with vanilla ice cream...and whatever the hell else I want.

*MOMMY YO!

May you always stay beautiful.

May you always dance your heart away.



May you always be tough like Manny Pacquiao.

May you always know that you are special.

May you alway feel confident wearing them high heeled shoes.

May you always smile, be happy and enjoy life because you deserve it...

May you always feel loved unconditionally.



BECAUSE YOU ARE.

Happy Mother's Day!

I love you Mommy...

*MY ROYAL WEDDING THOUGHTS

Luckiest girl in the world...


How do you wear a hat on your forehead? ....SUPERGLUE?


Home wrecker....


William needs ROGAINE...



Pippa (the Maid of Honor) looks absolutely beautiful! ...she nearly outshine the bride


I threw up a little when I saw these hats...


They look good together...


AVATAR...


Harry just oozes charm...( he's my new favorite guy :) )


I think there should be a Royal Family reality show so a Royal junkie like me can sit and watch all day while learning even more about weird hats and expensive dresses and all royal stuff that only royal family do...

AND

I.JUST.HAVE.TO.DO.THIS