June 11, 2008 ng gabi nang lumapag ang eroplanong sinasakyan ko sa Ninoy Aquino International Airport... Di ko inaasahan na may konting luhang papatak sa mga mata ko, medyo madrama but it's true...di ko mapigilan . "This is my home!." It just feels great going back to my hometown where most people I knew lives, where my friends had all missed me, where I learned riding the bicycle, where I can sing videoke at the top of my lungs and neighbors won't call 911 and complain, where people don't think it's weird eating hilaw na mangga, the place where my kapitbahay's are glad to see me, where riding tricycle is fun, where I can buy fishball, taho, balot at yakult sa kalye, where my family loves me and eager to hug and kiss me and I can't wait to kiss and hug them too.
Mas marami ng malls ngayon, ganun pa rin ang traffic, siksikan na ang Cotabato street where I spent 31 years of my life, mahal na ang favorite kong Jollibee, di na 'ko kilala nung mga batang kinakarga at nilalaro ko noon, ganun pa rin ang simpleng buhay doon pero makikita mo pa rin ang ngiti sa bawat mukha ng mga kababayan ko.
I was amazed with my friend Riza who still kept the last text I sent her in May 2005 before I left for USA and also with my friend Pin who still have my picture (noong sexy pa ako) saved on her cellphone she took of me on my last few days sa Pilipinas in 2005... Ang sarap ng pakiramdam being thought like that :D .
My mom and dad looks older na but they are still the same fun, nurturing, loving and hardworking parents I always knew. My brother and sisters look happy with their own family and that makes me happy too knowing they are oki doki. I was glad to meet the new members of my family - my bro-in-law, Anton and my 1 year old pretty niece , Erhin. It was great spending time with friends too kahit sandali lang but the fun memories will always make me smile whenever I think about it.
Nakakalungkot na konti lang ang oras ko doon, didn't get to see all of my friends and visit all my neighbors , didn't get drunk like I wanted to, di ko nabisita ang beach, di ko nakita yung ultimate crush ko. Parang ang bilis tumakbo ng oras... Parang ayoko ng iwan ang Pilipinas...
June 27 ng madaling araw, gotta get up and catch the plane back to Florida. Sabi ko di ako iiyak, ang corny ... But katulad ng pakiramdam ko 2 weeks ago, noong lumapag ang eroplanong sinasakyan ko, di ko mapigilan ang pag luha. Luha na puno ng paghahangad na sana mas mahaba kong nakapiling ang mga mahal ko sa buhay.... Kailan kaya ako babalik sa kinagisnan kong lugar? Kailan ko kaya ulit mayayakap sila? Kailan kaya ito mauulit muli? ...Hindi ko pa alam.
Malungkot ....but kailangan nang umalis.
I know one day , when the right time comes , we will be together again and it's gonna be another great moment of my life that I will forever treasure.
In the meantime, dito muna ko sa land of the free with the best husband in the whole world who makes me happy all the time.
Di ko alam kung kailan..medyo matagal pa... but I'll be back home... for good. :D