( written on Oct.26,2011 ---missing my Husband )
......October 24, 2011, My husband Chuck passed away due to Heart attack.
I typed those words and I re-read them and I cannot believe it’s true.
I wish I was lying to you.
But I’m not.
The world lost some color that day... As soon as the doctors told me to be ready because there's no hope that they can save him, everything seemed to turn black and white.
I imagine it will take time to turn back to color again but the world will never, ever be the same.
My heart feels missing.
This is so completely unfair.... It’s unfair....
I just can’t comprehend it..
I wonder if I can get an explanation from God why this happened, would it make me feel better?
I am so grateful to have him for 9 years...great fun loving memories. To have wrapped my arms around him, kissed him , laughed with him.... to have shared our dreams together, to have been able to look into his eyes and tell him how much I loved him and how lucky I was to have him in my life...
I will never, ever forget the gift of just knowing him...my fun fun funny guy!
BUT FOR RIGHT NOW, MY HEART JUST WANTS HIM BACK.
Please pray for his soul....
"IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW OLD YOU ARE OR WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE , YOU NEVER STOP NEEDING YOUR MOM" - Kate Winslet. ....And I will never stop needing mine...Happy Mother's Day to the best mom in the whole world.Daddy,Honey, Jon-Jon, Precious and I wants to thank you for the never ending love and care.We love you with all our heart.